Out of Sorts

I'm feeling a little disconnected from life here. Donna and I seem

to be a little off center in our relationship. I know she is hurting

in her dealings with her Mom. I know she doesn't really know what to do and it is driving her crazy.

My boss and I are also at ends. She wanted me to work on Friday and I don't want to because my friend, Carolyn will be here and I don't want to miss any time with her. Also, last week

was really hard on me physically. With this Fitness Study, we are suppose to be with the people all the time when they are in

the facility. To do that means I am standing all the time and my

knee just won't do it.

But the worst relationship is the one with God. Somewhere I

got off track and that is something I can't deal with. I've been

reading "Refined by Fire" by Mel and Brian Birdwell. I haven't

been moved by a book for a long time and this one is incredible.

Brian Birdwell was at the Pentagon on 9/11 and was burned over 60% of his body. The book tells of their faith during his recovery. Although I certainly am not in the same boat as the

Birdwells, my war with food is as serious to me. I need to recommit to the Lord because without him in my corner I will be lost. I don't want to lose my relationship with God so I am starting to go back to what I did when I first joined OA. I will turn my life over to God again. LET GO, LET GOD!!!!!!!!