The Way My Mind Works

Sometimes I don't like the way my mind works. There were two instances today that just upset me. The first was with my friend, Donna. Ever since her mother came to live with her, she and I have been off center with each other. I know she is under a lot of stress with her mom. After all, it is difficult to see your parent change before your eyes. You expect your parent to be your parent all their/your life. You don't expect the roles to exchange but sometimes they do and it really shakes you up when it happens. You don't want to accept it and you can't change it back.

But we are definitely off track with each other. I feel like she doesn't hear me at all. Her mom is suppose to go home on the 6th of June and maybe we can talk.......just talk. I don't want to leave this area with us feeling this way because the relationship will be gone and that would break my heart.

The other event was a phone call from my nephew. We were suppose to meet in Philly on Mon. Now he wants to change to the middle of the week. I do not want to drive 6 hours after working and then have to work the next day. I get cramps in my legs and this would really be hard on me. His reason for changing is that they have to clean their house. It also sounds that only he would be coming.......not his wife and son. I am sure there are good reasons for this change but I

seem to be hearing something else in my head which I don't like. I do not want to be thinking like this and hope that God will take this lousy feeling out of my head. It is not a good way.