Pick myself up, brush myself off and start all over ...

I am not abstinent. I haven't eaten any bread or desserts but I am not abstinent. Yesterday I ate crap. I did not use any sense in my choices at all and I did not call anyone for help. Not a good choice.

Part of the OA program is knowing when to yell for help when you need it. It is frustrating but I recognize that this is one of my big problems. I always think I can handle it by myself but I can't. I can't do anything by myself.

I called someone today. It is the first time I have reached out to another OA member and asked for help. Now I am sitting here with tears in my eyes because someone was there for me. Little things mean alot. I need to get back to doing my steps with OA. When I get out to Washington, I think I will try and find a sponser. I don't want to go it alone. I am not a loner anymore. Of course, I know that God is always with me because it is He that made sure that someone answered the phone when I called. Thanks God......I needed that.