Ready for take off(second time around)

I was all set. I checked everything and then checked it again. I looked out to the horizon, spread my wings, and....................a big hand reached and pulled me back.

That is what it felt like when I went to see my Shrink today. I was fully prepared to say goodbye to the man I had spent the last 18 years spilling my guts to only to find he doesn't think I am ready. I have to admit it: I was hurt and angry and confused. I felt like all my confidence had been kicked out of me. He explained to me that there was a grieving process which I needed to go thru before I could say goodbye. Reluctantly, I agreed to return for one more session. I left a little subdued and still a little pissed off. When I got into my car, I sat and thought about what had happened and suddenly I realized what it was. You know when people go up in planes and jump out and skydive? Well, before they get in, someone checks their chutes, lines rigging, the works. This is so that when they jump, they don't go splat. JJ is my buddy and all he was doing is checking my rigging so I won't go splat. I said a thank you to God for having someone like JJ to watch out for me as I take the next step in my journey.

I didn't lose my confidence. It is still there and it is still strong. It isn't a step back: it is just a recheck from a good friend and teacher. I can wait..........I am use to flight delays.